Working mum v Home mum

The last few months have been ridiculously busy as in the new year I was offered a job which I just couldn't turn down: to be a 2-day-a-week junior primary school chaplain. Since beginning this new job which is exciting, fun, enriching and fulfilling but tiring, I have found that the extras in my life, like writing the occasional blog post, have been shoved aside in favour of spending all my time that isn't spent at work with my kids.
Thank God I'm now on school holidays.
My house has been messier as a result but I have felt that it is truly necessary. My son has had a bit of a hard time adjusting to the change in his life. He's 3.5 and while he's been ok with the occasional afternoon spent at his Tanni Judith's house (family daycare provider and all round awesome woman) while I've been at uni, this routine of two days a week has taken some getting used to. He's getting there and I even heard him telling his little sister: "You don't have to cry, mummy always comes back."
My daughter has adjusted too, as has our breastfeeding routine but now that she's one she's happy to have a tub of yogurt while I'm at work and take her boob when I get back rather than me having to express a bottle for her.
There have been quite a few changes but one of the biggest is my mind set and I'm actually still working on that. You see, for the last ten weeks I've still been thinking of myself as a Stay-At-Home-Mum who just has a lot of extra commitments, rather than as a part time Working-Mum. Thinking of myself in this way has made me feel guilty because I've felt like I'm not doing everything I should be for my kids. I've still been trying to cram in the same amount of craft time with my son as before, the same number of story books read together, and the same number of playground visits but I have, for obvious reasons, been falling short of my goals and it's been causing me a lot of guilt.

Craft at home

 I've been talking to a lot of working mums to see how they cope and what they Do like to do with their kids on their days off and I've noticed that working mums are very proud that they work and provide for their kids. They do feel guilt that they are leaving their kids in the care of others but know that their kids are getting to experience socialising, fun and play and all sorts of other important things. Stay-At-Home-Mums are also proud that they provide for their kids in a different way. They are there to be the nurturer of their kids, to teach them in their homes and to provide stability. Both groups are rightly proud of what they are giving their kids but what about those of us who work part time or study or both?
We're stuck in a kind of limbo and it can do your head in if you're not careful.

Learning how seeds grow into capsicum plants with Tanni Judith

I have been really blessed to have such a wonderful daycare provider.

Doing drawing at a cafe on a daycare adventure

Since discovering how miserable I felt that my kids could no longer do our usual fun stuff she has been working on replicating our weekly routine. She takes the kids to the library each week and to the playground. They have craft time, they do science experiments and cooking and go on nature rambles and she even works on their physio with them. She takes photos of these activities and sends them to me on my phone and she parents them according to my Attachment Parenting style. I occasionally get a little sad that it's not me going on these outings with them and but I've decided that it's more important that these experiences happen and that my kids are having fun and learning about the world.

At the library, taking his doll for a ride.

I am finding a peace with myself and my decisions but still feel that the working mum v home mum tension is still there. I think it's a tension that I'll have to learn to live with and I think it may get stronger as physiotherapy and occupational therapy for both kids is ramped up this year.
But that's a post for another time (hopefully).
Thanks for reading the ramble.
How do you cope with the work/home dichotomy?